deercountry | (closed) february catchall

( there's something cute about her amazement. being so high above ground is something so common to jinx that one would more likely to find her above than below. it became the norm for her so seeing someone else go through the experience for the first time, it's... endearing in some way. and it thaws out her once icy heart to see chizuru light up like this -- to be able to go through a new encounter together. )

Really? ... How are you likin' it so far?

( and when she asks this, her tone is soft and sweet like honey. whenever chizuru decides to answer, her eyes subtly inch lower to the other's lips. if the surprise hadn't been obvious yet, well, maybe it will be as jinx slyly maneuvers a little closer. it's amusing how things change over time. jinx had always wanted an opportunity to kiss chizuru but the reasoning behind it changed. before it was one: because she was simply cute and two: to beat sharon in the kissing game.

but now?

now it's because her feelings for the other had blossomed beyond chizuru's looks. she is sugary sweet, caring, polite, patient, and calming to be around. having her in her world feels it's not impossible to have lovely things. jinx can see now that even a monster like herself, she can take care of others... and she can love them and provide love without them crumbling in her grasp.

if she has to take the slow lane in life, she'd be okay with that if chizuru is next to her; hand in hand. the dead thinks it's disgusting how attached and how fond she is of this girl. and sometimes, jinx wonders if silco would even approve of their relationship -- he might believe she is all wrong for her. or that she is weakening her. if so, she doesn't care and she'll argue him up and down over it. because being with chizuru had been like coated in a nice warm bath with little bubbles tickling at her nose. whether the other feels the same is a mystery, but... something has to be there if she's still sitting by her, right? )

Edited 2023-04-03 23:19 (UTC)

Well..

[ Chizuru seems so innocently focused on answering the question. The girl looks so much in thought, like she's determined to give a very thorough and accurate answer to this question. Jinx is giving her this experience, so it's the least she can do for the other in return, after all! ]

It's.. a little bit scary, or-- um, maybe not scary, but it makes your nerves go off a little bit, you know..? [ It's not that easy to put emotions that plainly into words, but she's doing her best!

Even if it means that - for a moment - she doesn't notice what Jinx is looking at yet whatsoever, just prattling right on. ]

But it's not really bad, since it's also.. it's new, and kind of amazed, almost overwhelming, and--

[ .. It's only now that Chizuru stops, considering she's actually looking at Jinx rather than the view. It's hard to see just how much the girl realised in this moment, but her eyes do go a little wider as she stares at Jinx. ]

Um, is something..

[ Wrong? O-Or on her face? ]

— Wrong? ( she'll finish that question for her then response back with a shake of her head. )

No. Everything's perfect. ... Being with you so far has been so damn perfect.

( jinx tries to be careful with this, after all, chizuru is still a skittish little thing and needs to be handle with care. and she feels she's getting the hang of how the other works.

the only sad side is that she wishes chizuru's self-esteem would grow and have the ability to just see what she sees. to have the courage to hop over a fence and say," i want to do this!" loud and proud with no fear. that day will come, she believes and jinx hopes she can be there right there to witness it and be proud for her. so gently, the teen rests her forehead against the other as she sighs out so softly and relaxed.

the words "i think i love you" bubble around her tongue, but she swallows it down. it might not be the right time to express that emotion (she'll say it in a worst time later), but maybe by being this close will say it for her? who knows. )

I don't want this day to ever end...

( she quietly admits -- a hand places carefully along the other's cheek to pull back but still close enough. her eyes meet hers then down to her lips again. her stomach and her heart are doing so many cartwheels but it's not making her feel sick over it. actually. it's such an exciting feeling that she wants to experience over and over again. )

Edited 2023-04-04 22:31 (UTC)

[ Well, that's one way to shut Chizuru up. The girl stops in the middle of all her rambles, all her attempts at putting her feelings on this entirely new ferris wheel experience practically dying right there on her tongue.

If not just because it's kind of hard to focus on those when Jinx is doing all of this. When she's saying those words, when she's suddenly leaning so close so Chizuru's entire view is filled with only Jinx. (Too bad about the outside view, but Chizuru sure isn't pulling her head away to look at that.)

The close proximity definitely has her blushing, considering how shy the girl is. But she doesn't move away either, instead lingering right where she assumes Jinx wants her to be, Chizuru's cheeks filling up with a paleblood blush as she stares at the other from so close. ]

W-Well.. Even if today may end, we'll always have tomorrow too, right..?

( there is truth to her words. there will always be tomorrow and the day after and the day after that. future days she can't wait to experience, share, and explore with her. and although this is their last month as a "couple" together, jinx has high hopes that their relationship can push further on beyond just a trial. chizuru is the opposite of her; horrendously so. even right down to their timeline era. but that doesn't matter to jinx, not one bit. they're making this work despite all odds and she feels they are the definition of "anything can happen".

her heart is beating and swelling before she can even utter any more words. her thoughts are clashing with each other with "just kiss her!" or "no wait, we better ask!". because in those action movies she's seen, the hero immediately leans in and kisses the love interest without hesitations. it seems powerful, passionate, and a big moment. and that's something jinx want to replicate -- for this to be their big moment. )

( but jinx had also seen her fair shares of comedies, too. how the two leads go in for a kiss, but bump their noses together or someone bites the other's tongue...some...how. just thinking over this is making her build up with nerves and before she realizes, jinx is leaving a lot of dead air between them. )

Y-Yeah. ( she stutters finally, swallowing. ) There's always tomorrow.

( they're so close and the girl wets her lips quickly just to be sure they're not all dried out (another fear. what if she has cracked lips?). it's either now or never, she thinks. so she asks in a very light whisper. )

... Can I kiss you?

Edited 2023-04-06 22:39 (UTC)

[ Chizuru has no idea about everything that's going through Jinx's head right now. Sure, she notices the outward silence - it's hard not to - but she figures there's probably a good reason that the other pauses before answering her.

So even with the dead air hanging between them, Chizuru just keeps staring at Jinx, like she's patiently waiting for the other to speak up-- even if it's not with much.

At first, anyway. Because the second part of what the other says may have been predictable to some considering the circumstances, but apparently not to Chizuru. The girl's eyes widen in surprise, a faint paleblood blush on her cheeks - but she doesn't look away.

(If not just because that'd be a majorly rude thing to do after Jinx asked that.) ]

Huh? U-Um..

[ ... is Chizuru ready for that? She's not sure, but.. on the other hand, they are trial dating.

This is supposed to be part of that, right? Shouldn't they at least try? ]

O.. Okay. If you want to..

( jinx almost went in for the kill but the words 'if you want to' stills her. she inches away with her eyes flicker over to the other. with a soft hum, she taps chizuru's cheek with her index. )

I do want to. ... But will that make my Rabbit happy?

( she let their noses bump again -- nuzzling softly yet lovingly. )

You're all about makin' sure I'm happy and pleasing me. It's adorable. — But it ain't fun if it's just one of us. Sooooo .... ♪

( the sing-song word soars into the air; twisting and dancing with the light breeze. and while that index now rest along her cheek, her thumb brushes smoothly to trace over the other's lower lip. )

Do you want me to kiss you, Chizuru? Tell me what I can do to make my Rabbit happy right now.

Edited 2023-04-09 14:44 (UTC)

[ Make that two things she wasn't expecting.

Giving Jinx permission if the other wanted it is one thing. Sure, she had to think about it for a brief moment, but-- it felt natural. If it's something Jinx wants to try, and if it's something they should try, then of course this much is okay.

But putting what Chizuru wants into the equation? That's so much. Her brain isn't used to considering that part, to a point where it feels like every single thought she tries to turn towards the question is just coming up with an error, like her own mind isn't capable of processing this.

What does she want? Well-- when has Chizuru ever known the answer to that question? ]

I'm-- I-I'm sorry if it's not fun..

[ She stammers that first, because it simply feels easier to first return to. It's so much easier to apologize for a perceived sleight, compared to thinking about what she wants when she has absolutely no clue what that is.

So even though it almost makes her sound like a robot, repeatingly falling into the same things, Chizuru can only think of one answer to that question. Nothing else comes up in her mind. ]

But I just.. want what you want. I want what makes you happy.

( she wets her lips for a moment; pondering over her words and her own thoughts. maybe she can try this from a different angle because this mindset of hers... she has mix feelings about it. again, it's adorable but... a little concerning. jinx hums with a light smile dancing on her face. )

Oh yeah? If I wanna jump outta this cart, I doooooon't think you'd follow. And I don't want ya to. 'Less we get attacked or somethin'. But I'll just catch you after you hopped out and we'll be fine.

( the teen scoots back just a bit while clicking her tongue. )

Jokes aside honey, we gotta work on this... line of thinkin' of yours. It's sweet you want to make me happy and all that junk, I want the same for you. But... when it comes to this? You can't just follow along 'cuz the other person wants it. You gotta want it too. Your wants and needs are just as important as mine.

We're a team, remember? If you want me to kiss you, you can tell me. If you're nervous about it being too intense, I can make it really quick or not do it at all. This is all you, your time to shine.

( with all that serious speech out of the way, she teasingly pokes her side with a wider grin now. )

'Sides, if you say keep usin' that line on me, I'm going to start poking you as a punishment until you learn to make straight answers.

Ah..!

[ It's in response to the poke, of course. Because Chizuru's mind sure would need a few moments to cope with everything else that's being thrown her way here, but the reaction to the sudden poke is so much more instinctive - especially when Chizuru is such a sensitive girl on top of it all. The gasp just escapes her, her body wincing (though not in any actually painful way, obviously) in the aftermath. ]

B-But I don't know what I want..!

[ It's not said with a whole lot of emotion. Sure, her voice is raised a little bit, but it's mostly in the surprised aftermath of the poke. There's no anger in that statement - please, this is Chizuru - but not really sadness either. It's just a very, very honest admission that flew out of her mouth a little easier than it usually would while trying to defend herself from further playful pokes that she's so sensitive to.

At least she does start to blush the moment she realises what she just said. Oh god, Chizuru, you're bringing the mood down, why are you doing this-- ]

I just know I want you to be happy. [ So that's what she's working with, in the face of a lack of any other want. The concept of wanting is so foreign to a girl like her, after all. ] Is that such a bad thing..? I mean, um.. nothing about this is making me sad.

[ Nothing about what she's doing here, she means. Chizuru's own thoughts are a different matter entirely, but that's not what she's addressing. Jinx's actions don't make her feel bad, she means, which is the only way Chizuru can explain this when it takes a lot for her to get to a level where she can realise what she likes. ]

I.. like seeing you smile.

[ See? That much she at least has realised. S-She's getting there!! She's doing her best. ]

( the poking ceases for now so she can let the other talk clearly without squeaking between words. and she listens carefully, taking it all in, then smiles warmly
at her last statement. if chizuru enjoys seeing her smile, she will give her that. not that it'll be hard to do in the first place. )

There's nothin' wrong with you wanting me to be happy. And I'm happy with you, that's been accomplished. And now I wanna make you feel happy or... well, do whatever that makes you happy. You definitely got it in ya to tell me. I'm not callin' you, "Honey" 'cuz I guessed it.

But... — ( she reaches over her hand; lacing their fingers together as her tone lulls. ) it's okay not knowin' what you want, either. I don't always know what I want with stuff. But know that it's okay to be selfish sometimes and to ask things for yourself. 'Sides, I really wanna spoil the heck outta you and I need to know what to do.

( chuckling softly to herself, she raises up their hands so she can plant a light kiss on chizuru's knuckle. ) You like seein' me smile, so I'll smile for you. Done and done. Thanks for letting me know. And look?

( she gestures her free hand to their surroundings. )

Everything is still intact.

[ It's true that it is a double whammy, huh. Being bad at asking for things in the first place, and then on top of it also not knowing what exactly it is that you want in the first place - even if the latter may flow a little out of the former, though not entirely.

At least it's a little reassuring to hear Jinx say the same thing. That she also sometimes doesn't know what she wants. It's a little surprising, even, since in Chizuru's eyes Jinx does seem like a person who often knows what she wants..

But as she's thinking about all that, her expression thoughtful as she's staring at the other's smile, she's thrown out of the thoughts a little bit by that last part. It makes her glance around them, eyes wide as they meet the scenery around them, the world viewed from above, but then her gaze returns to Jinx.

She ducks her head, blushing a little. ]

Was it not supposed to be..?

[ Don't worry, Jinx. She gets that it's a little bit of a lighthearted joke - so rather than it completely going over her head, this is her way of going along with it while still having a lot to think about at the same time. ]

( maybe to someone else the joke she made was pretty lame, but it brings a chuckle out of jinx. she brings up her hand to cover her face to laugh because say it don't spray it! not that she would do that, although it does happen on accidents. when she simmers down, the girl grins and looking back over. )

Shit, who knows! This place is so crazy that I can't even keep up with it. — And that is sayin' a lot.

( this doesn't ruin the mood though, not by a long shot. if anything, it just makes everything feel more natural and real. and it also doesn't stop her from leaning right back in; purring in the other's ear. )

You're so silly, Rabbit. I can always count on ya to make me laugh.

( then a feathery kiss on the cheek. it's not the lips but... hopefully she'll get to those. )

[ At least she seems receptive of the kiss on her cheek, without any surprise yelping.. though Chizuru may be blushing a little, because physical contact is still a lot in general when you've been raised in the kind of society Chizuru comes from, especially as a girl. But there's no protest, just-- a moment of silence where she seems to be processing it in the aftermath.

Especially when it's coupled with those words. ]

.. I'm glad if I can make you laugh.

[ At least she knows that much, and she slowly raises a hand to put it on the cheek Jinx just kissed, feeling the heat there.

Though it's at that moment that Chizuru also turns her head, letting out a gasp as she sees just how high they've gotten. ]

O-Oh, look at the view..! [ Her eyes are growing a little wider as she's looking at it herself. ]

( her lips parted to make a comment but whatever statement was going to be get shushed abruptly by the other's exclaim of the view. so jinx turns her attention to it too, and like chizuru, stares at it in awe.

the girl had seen many sunrises, sunsets, and the heights of trench about a dozen times by now. but with each moment, it's never dull or boring. her pinks sparkle in every given opportunity at these sights. unlike chizuru, though, she doesn't voice out the beauty on what's ahead of them -- only expresses it by how soft and almost child-like her face is appearing. imagine.

there was a time in her life she wondered if she would ever be lucky enough to see something this remarkable. )

It's beautiful...

( she whispers this; entirely stunned. the ride itself does stop for a brief bit for them to sit there at the top. how nice of the man down below to let them see this. jinx didn't need to threaten him. what a guy! )

[ By the time Chizuru manages to rip her gaze away from the scenery - thankfully while the ride is still stopped for a moment - to turn her head towards Jinx, she can't help but notice that expression on the other's face. It's not entirely surprising, since she's seen Jinx very child-like about things before. Sometimes she comes across a lot younger than she is, especially when she gets all excited.

Even if this is a little more of a muted kind of excitement compared to the usual.

Still.. it makes Chizuru laugh, though very softly. Fondly, rather than the sound of someone that's making fun of someone else. ]

You look like you haven't seen this much before, even though you must have.

[ After all, Jinx is way more adventerous than Chizuru herself is. She would've been at way more high up places than Chizuru, she figures. ]

( if it wasn't for her giggle, jinx would had never broken her starry-like gawk of their scenery. the girl glances over and her face beats rapidly into a shade of red with embarrassment. the gaze rips off somewhere else -- the door looks lovely, for starters. people should really admire how beautiful doors can be, way better than the beauty of nature for sure. )

S-Shaddup, Squeaky.

( don't worry, the comment and the name calling is matching the tone with chizuru's. not out of anger or hurtful mockery, but light and maybe a little bashfulness, too. and although despite it all, jinx does lean in further to place her head on the other's shoulder. a soft breath flows out of her chest -- taking advantage of this opportunity to rest her eyes for a moment to relax. )

Edited 2023-04-18 18:15 (UTC)

[ The girl doesn't move. Instead she just sits there, allowing Jinx to lean against her, even going as far as lowering her head onto Chizuru's shoulder. She's still mentally fussing a little bit over that last comment, b-but she likes to think Jinx didn't mean it in an unkind way.. It's probably just that she didn't know what else to say, right?

(After all, who is annoyed by someone and then instantly leans on their shoulder? That's clearly not how it works, even Chizuru knows that.) ]

You.. can stay like that, if you want.

[ A slight pause, and then she adds: ]

Until we're all the way back to the ground, I mean.

[ Since otherwise it's going to be a little hard to get out of this carriage.. But until then? Chizuru definitely isn't bothered by this in the slightest. ]

Mmm...

( it looks as if she'll take up on this offer; resting along her shoulder with her eyes slowly fluttering open. lazily, she idly doodles little swirls and lines over the back of chizuru's hand. there's something brewing in her mind -- gears are turning, but she's seeking for the right words to form them into a coherent sentence. )

— Thanks for... being out here with me. I know I haven't shown it, but I've been pretty nervous.

( hums a little chuckle at the sudden thought that flies by in her head. )

Haven't been slap yet so I must be doin' right with this dating thing.

Edited 2023-04-20 17:29 (UTC)

[ Chizuru seems to take those words in with a momentary quiet contemplation - though it doesn't take too long for her to speak up. She isn't looking at Jinx, since it's a little hard in their current position, so Chizuru is just staring at the scenery as she speaks. ]

There's no need to be nervous..

[ Pot, kettle.

But Chizuru wouldn't be Chizuru if she wasn't constantly trying to put other people at ease as much as she can. ]

We're just out here together to have fun, right..?

Yyyyeap! 'Least I am. And if you're not, we still got plenty of stuff linin' up to twist that mood around.

( which does finally get the ferries wheel back in motion for them to reach the ground again. )

Just wait 'till we get to the food. My favorite part of anything.

( jinx removes her head off the girl's shoulder and sits more upright -- doing little twists and such to stretch any sore muscles. )

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