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Catch-All (OTA)
Who: Darth Maul
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What: A catch-all for stuff over the past few months
When: June to September
Where: All over
Content Warnings: Dissociation from reality, stalking
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What: A catch-all for stuff over the past few months
When: June to September
Where: All over
Content Warnings: Dissociation from reality, stalking
For Ezra
Now he felt it was time to rid himself of some of the pain he'd carried around with him for so long. He contacted Ezra and asked to meet at his home to talk about something on his mind, remaining decidedly vague on what that was. He set up some tea for when the young Jedi arrived and waited.
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Which Ezra generally happy to do, for nearly anyone.
So, he turns up in timely fashion and offers a small smile as he comes in.
"Do I rate the good tea?" he teases, lightly.
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Once he'd gotten his own ready, he stripped his gloves off so that he could feel the warmth run through his hands, the scars on them prominent if one looked close enough to see them blending in with his red and black skin. "I have something serious I need to ask you. Of those left here from the galaxy, I feel only you or perhaps Luke might have any idea of what needs to be done."
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He settles into a chair, with his own mug. Something Maul doesn't believe he can accomplish using Darkside techniques, or at least not alone, he surmises. He nods. "Ok. I'm listening."
No promises beyond that, yet, but Maul has his full attention.
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He took a sip of tea, waiting to see what Ezra would have to say to that.
For Imperius
He asked Darth Imperius in for tea just as he had Ezra. He found it was easier to talk this over in a calmer setting instead of one that could end up hyping up his emotions and making him get passionate about a subject that was rather difficult for him to bring up. He nudged the boxes of tea across towards the Sith as he set the kettle on the stove to boil. "I need your opinion on something I have been considering."
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"What sort of thing?"
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"My saberstaff. There's four crystals within it. I didn't kill any Jedi to get them, my master thought I was too young for that when it came time to build my saber. So they called out and came to me when I went searching for them. I bled them all. At the time it's what I needed, for them to help carry some of my anger, pain, and hate. But lately....I don't need that anymore. Much of what I've carried around for so long I've been able to finally address head-on and put to rest."
He knew Imperius had been there for part of when he'd faced off against Sidious, how he'd overcome his fear of his monstrous former master. "I've been thinking of seeking out a way to purify them." He'd mostly been staring down and now looked up at this last part to gauge Imperius's reaction.
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"I made my crystals myself, when I made my lightsaber." Something that had fallen out of practice, also according to Ezra.
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"I'm not sure it even can be done. But purifying it would require taking out everything that was within the crystals that caused them to be bled in the first place." For Maul, that was going to be difficult. A lot of negative emotions had gone into them to turn them red in the first place. "But I think it is something I now need to do."
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"I think I understand enough about bleeding by now to say that I recommend purifying them. Like you said, it's something you need to do. It's a matter of whether you think you can let go of your anger and hatred enough so that you can."
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Maul nodded at hearing Imperius agree with him. It was heartening to hear a fellow Sith tell him that what he was doing was the right course of action. "I think I can do so. Much of what I was angry about have been things I can finally let go."
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"Now that you've confronted Sidious, you mean?" He took a sip of tea.
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"That was part of it, yes. I needed to learn not to be afraid of him any longer. The other part..." He hesitated for a moment. "I blamed Obi-Wan for so long for his part in what happened to me. He was an easier target than focusing on my master. But once I actually got to know him in Deerington and here, I..." He was still a bit reluctant to discuss what had happened between them. But he trusted Imperius, at least to the extent he was able to trust any other Sith Lord. "...I fell in love with him. That caused much of the anger I'd held so long towards him to vanish."
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He paused before taking another sip of tea, processing that information. "You fell in love with a Jedi... I mean, I suppose I can't talk. I fell in love with a Republic spy who just happened to be the estranged son of the Jedi grandmaster."
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He chuckled when Talwyn mentioned who he'd fallen in love with. "Sounds like quite the tale. I wonder if any Sith anywhere has ever done anything like falling in love in less than dramatic fashion." He doubted it. Sith were drama queens by nature.
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"I don't think you have, no." Imperious poured himself more water and got a fresh teabag. "I'd love to hear it."
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And once they did that, they drugged me. I woke up groggy, sewn to a dead deer, as the small building they'd put me in was lit on fire. I was still too drugged to get out of there on my own. I would have either suffocated from the smoke or burnt to death. That's when Reaper appeared." There was a soft look that came into Maul's eyes and it showed in his voice as well. "I thought I was dreaming at first. A masked man dressed all in black, holding a shotgun phasing through the wall? Impossible. But he rescued me, knocking down a wall and then dragging me through before the flames could reach me. Very romantic, wouldn't you say? He killed and injured a few of the townspeople as well and so did I once I was able to breathe again. We walked a little and talked after that, learning about one another. Imagine my surprise when he returned the flirtations I tried out on him. There was a spark between us even from that first meeting that simply grew and grew until it was undeniable. Everything that occurred between us since then can be traced back to that."
He smiled fondly at the thought of his husband. How different his life would have been had he not met Reaper his first month in Deerington.
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He wondered if that was what he sounded like when he spoke of Theron. Or Lord Cytharat, in the brief time that they'd known each other. He and the other Sith had liked each other, and had even kissed, but their paths had simply taken them in different directions.
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Preferably by then, Maul hoped they would have racked up many more piles of bodies through their usual shenanigans. He'd already shed pints of blood and left corpses in his wake when it came to protecting Reaper. He'd never lost a day's sleep about it when it was in defense of his mate.
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"Theron and I met under rather... unusual circumstances. He, I, and another Sith uncovered a conspiracy involving a cult dedicated to a man we thought was dead, so we teamed up to put a stop to it. When he and I met in person for the first time, there was this immediate infatuation between the two of us. It was mostly playful flirting at first, but the more we got to know each other, the more real my feelings became."
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Maul smiled at the story. Of course they would have met that way. Of course. "That's how it was with Reaper and I at first. It was just meant to be flirting between us, something to pass the time to amuse ourselves with. Fortunately for us both, Pthumerians have a way of throwing people into intense circumstances that force them to bond quickly, so we soon became more than just friends." Being snowed in at a haunted hotel had certainly given them a lot of time to cuddle in their rooms together, happy as a pair of clams to spend most of their time having sex.
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"Funny how that tends to happen, doesn't it? People brought together by weird or intense situations." He ran his finger along the rim of his teacup, careful to keep his fingernail away from the ceramic.
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"Love has been good to experience. I wouldn't be able to even think of purifying my lightsaber if I hadn't learned what I have by loving others and being loved in return." He felt like such a sap saying that but it was true. Going down that path of love had led him right where he was now, on the verge of doing something else he never thought would be possible.
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"I'd like to marry Theron one day. Sure, I'd get a Jedi and a Republic Commando for in-laws, but I could live with it." He could just imagine what Satele Shan and Jace Malcolm's reactions would be to their son falling for a Sith.
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"Such a marriage I fear would be impossible in my time due to how few there are on the Dark Side." Even Ventress had picked a Nightbrother in the form of Savage for her mate rather than anyone on the Light Side. "Although I could imagine my master marrying the tiny old reptile that is the Grandmaster of the Jedi Order if it had somehow served his own purposes." Really, Sidious would have done absolutely anything if it got him what he wanted. "They would have had a lot in common, both old and senile as they both are."
An Assortment of Prompts From Months Gone By (OTA!)
A. Everything Old Is New Again
I. Simulacrum
[Taken from the March 2021 Deerington event.]
[Maul woke up in a bed that wasn’t his own and in an unfamiliar place. When he looked down at his hands, he found that they weren’t the red-and-black they should have been. They were now the skin tone of a human being. Cautiously reaching up, he found instead of horns that he had hair. His legs were still prosthetics, much less advanced ones than he was used to, but that was about the only consistent thing that remained.
He immediately freaked out and began to try to get out of the small room he was in. A bunch of nurses and doctors rushed in, trying to calm him down, telling him that nothing was wrong. From what they said, this was something that happened regularly for him. They asked him if he remembered the accident, tried to insist his words about being in a different world were merely his delusions at work again.
The doctors sedated him for a period of time until he proved he was calm enough to be let out around the other patients. When he finally was allowed out into the common area among them, he was stunned. He remembered some of these people from Deerington and Trench!
….But was that real? Or was this real? Was he just insane? After all, sanity for him had always been a very tenuous state and the idea that he’d made up an entire life wasn’t beyond the scope of possibility for him. But if the last three years had been pure fantasy conjured by his mind, why had it felt so real?
He approached one of the people that he thought he recognized, limping over on prosthetics that felt near useless with how primitive they were. He sat down across from them.]
You seem familiar
II. Rabid Love
[Taken from the February 2021 Deerington event.]
He’d already experienced this all-consuming passion that was brought on by the infection caused by the flower rats once. You’d think this place would have been content with having him experience that a single time but apparently now. For here he was, being bitten again and once more showing his obsessive version of love to his chosen target again.
Maul being Maul, he followed his chosen target around from afar at first. He’d watch from the rooftops or from around corners, obsessively keeping an eye to make sure they just stayed safe. He knew better than anyone how hard that was in a place like Trench. But eventually it began to evolve, from watching to possessiveness. He’d break into their homes and aggressively make sure that no one was allowed to leave.
“No. You must stay here. With me. You’ll be safe that way.” Trying to get him to stop this insanity merely by talking to him was no good. The rat bite on his shoulder would need to be cleaned out. The clue as to what to do lay in the purple flower-shaped bruises on his skin. They’d begin to bloom more and more as time went on, giving his colorful skin an even more mottled appearance than before.
July
A. A Time To Stay
[Maul had never intended to leave Trench, not ever. He knew what awaited him back in his own galaxy and he wanted no part of that life any longer. His future and place was here in this world. His family and friends were all here. While it had been bittersweet to see some of them off to their own worlds again, he would cherish the memory of those who had left and keep them close in his hearts.
As it became apparent that everyone could now travel beyond the barriers of Trench, Maul became eager to do so. He’d always found being continuously stuck in one place the most stifling part of being stuck in Deerington and then Trench. To be able to move and see what else lay out there helped to satisfy the part of him that missed the whirl of space travel where he constantly went from planet to planet.
He’d ask anyone who was willing if they wanted to go on some expeditions with him. He’d pack up a bag filled with whatever he felt was necessary, bring along one or two of his pets that he felt would be especially helpful for whatever might have come their way, and then set out with his traveling companion. He sounded excited as they set out past the barriers of the city.]
What do you think we’ll find out here in the unknown?
Simulacrum
His questions and cautious politeness are innocent enough to get him let out on good behavior, and it is then he finds out he's in a place like that movie with Jack Nicolson. Midoriya doesn't consume the pills. Convinced he's been kidnapped and worried someone will try to steal his Quirk, he sets his quiet panic aside in favor of finding a way out of here.
"...Who are you?" he asks tentatively over a tray of a sad little lunch. This person does seem familiar, but Midoriya doesn't recognize Maul's transformation.
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He looked Deku over, his tone tentative but hopeful. "Do you remember being in another place besides this one? A place called Trench?" He had to know which reality was real. If he was simply a madman who couldn't keep his grasp on what was real or if this was another test by the accursed place he called home.
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That voice... It's familiar... But no, it can't be...
"Y-Yes!" he pipes, then flinches as he remembers he should probably be quieter. He settles down. "I live there... I think... I'm a Hero. I save people. I... don't know why they're keeping me here. This isn't even Japan."
He resists the urge to say he needs to escape. Will he think he's crazy?
"You sound like someone I know, but you look very different," he tries instead.
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He sat down with a little difficulty due to his primitive prosthetics across from the boy. "My name is Darth Maul." This time he was more confident in what he said, now more certain this was some strange test by the Pthumerians, tossed at them in an attempt to confuse and disorient them. "They must have changed my appearance when they trapped us here."
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He remembers when Maul was haunted by the memory of an old enemy. Fear had played a role then. Midoriya tries to remain calm for his sake. That goal helps cut through the panicked thoughts.
"It's me, Midoriya. Deku. I'm so sorry, we have to find a way to get you back to normal. They didn't transform me, but I can't use my Quirk... Who's 'they'?"
He knows what hospital doctors are. He's been in medical hospitals enough. That's not what he's asking. Who's really in charge?
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Maul explained the theory he had behind the reason they were stuck in the asylum. "The Pthumerians. Last time, in Deerington, this was caused by a half-Pthumerian. Julia Sodder." He paused. "Or perhaps Mother Superior. I'm not sure, it never was quite made clear which of them was behind the creation of this place. But I'm sure it is a Pthumerian who has done this again. Why, I don't know, but I believe we can still find a way out."
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"It would really help if we knew which one," he mutters, tapping his chin in thought. "They're all so different... How did you all get out last time?"
Midoriya concentrating on a strategy is a good sign that he's calm enough to get analytical. Maul experienced this before. That knowledge is an advantage. He spoons up a sad glob of mashed potatoes.
He quickly adds, "...Is the food safe to eat?"
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Maul poked at the food dubiously on Deku's plate with his own spoon. "I think so." The doctors wouldn't allow him to have a fork or knife, afraid he might do something with the sharp objects. Idiots. As if he'd need something sharp to cause havoc with. The spoon alone would be enough for him.
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"I'll pretend I didn't like the rest of my food, which isn't hard, and then we'll scout the vents. I'll follow you there in a minute."
He stands, scrapes off his tray, and leaves it with the other ones like a good boy. It pains him to waste food, but he must be careful.
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Maul tried to keep from drawing any attention to himself while he scouted out the area, looking up at the vents to see how difficult it might be to get through them. With a little luck, they'd be able to manage just fine, even without their respective powers.
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"This one looks promising. I'll test the weight first. It's not a screwdriver, but a nail file is the best I can do," he whispers. He stole it from an orderly's apron. He feels bad, but it is what it is; he did not hesitate.
He begins to undo the cover. "Cover me. Keep a lookout."
Maul is tall and large enough that he can literally cover Midoriya, obscuring him from the view down the hall. He tries to be quiet about it, barely clinking metal against metal, but clambering into the vent is a little louder. He winces apologetically. He's had training, but nothing beats experience. He's not at Aizawa's level in stealth.
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When Deku climbed into the vent, Maul winced at the sound. He glanced over again at the guards. They started to look curiously in the direction, so Maul went over and quickly "accidentally" knocked a plastic cup full of water to the floor. It caused them to turn their attention to the distraction, going over to ask a custodian to clean it up. Maul limped back over and climbed in after Deku, turning back to prop up the vent so it looked as if it was still in place. If no one looked at it too closely, their escape wouldn't be discovered for hours.
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Even this wide commercial-style vent is dark and cramped. Midoriya listens to the faint whir of fans as he carefully tests his weight one hand and knee at a time. He wishes they were at liberty to talk, but there is nothing in the way of insulation or soundproofing. Each sound bounces off the metal walls terribly.
Instead, he occasionally looks back at Maul whenever they come to a fork and motions with his hand to ask him which way they should go. At one point, Midoriya has to spend more time than he'd like to disable and dismantle a large fan so that they can pass through. Though his hands are steady, he can feel himself breaking into a nervous sweat.
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The slow, agonizing progress finally paid off as they drew near to the end of the maze of vents. "We're close now," Maul said softly, hoping that the sounds wouldn't echo too far from their present location. "Almost there. It's still not going to be easy once we get out." He remembered that clearly enough from the last time this had happened to him.
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"Try feeling for your power in intervals. When it returns, we have to be ready. I remember doing drills like that with Aizawa-sensei..."
Mr. Aizawa had the power to stop Quirks by looking at a person. Needless to say, exercises with him were intense. Midoriya is used to rolling with the punches. He was rigorously trained to, but even that training couldn't quite compare to the actual experience, first in his world and then in Trench. A Hero has to be ready for anything. He's worried about Maul though. If they don't get their powers back soon...
When Maul gives his update, Midoriya slows his crawl and cranes his neck to peer back at him.
"What should I expect?" he asks in a low, barely audible voice. He's used to speaking higher; there's a little roughness in his lower registers. "Should we make a plan now or scout outside first? How much do they know about us?"
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"We'll still need to move quietly. This place isn't keen on letting go of its prisoners." At least it hadn't been last time. Then again, last time it had been Julia controlling it all. He wasn't sure how that had changed now that the girl's spirit was no longer the one in control....or was it? He knew time was a flexible concept for the Pthumerians. The presence of a version of Ramona Derwin who had never been corrupted and could still allow them to access their deer forms was clear enough of that.