[ It's in response to the poke, of course. Because Chizuru's mind sure would need a few moments to cope with everything else that's being thrown her way here, but the reaction to the sudden poke is so much more instinctive - especially when Chizuru is such a sensitive girl on top of it all. The gasp just escapes her, her body wincing (though not in any actually painful way, obviously) in the aftermath. ]
B-But I don't know what I want..!
[ It's not said with a whole lot of emotion. Sure, her voice is raised a little bit, but it's mostly in the surprised aftermath of the poke. There's no anger in that statement - please, this is Chizuru - but not really sadness either. It's just a very, very honest admission that flew out of her mouth a little easier than it usually would while trying to defend herself from further playful pokes that she's so sensitive to.
At least she does start to blush the moment she realises what she just said. Oh god, Chizuru, you're bringing the mood down, why are you doing this-- ]
I just know I want you to be happy. [ So that's what she's working with, in the face of a lack of any other want. The concept of wanting is so foreign to a girl like her, after all. ] Is that such a bad thing..? I mean, um.. nothing about this is making me sad.
[ Nothing about what she's doing here, she means. Chizuru's own thoughts are a different matter entirely, but that's not what she's addressing. Jinx's actions don't make her feel bad, she means, which is the only way Chizuru can explain this when it takes a lot for her to get to a level where she can realise what she likes. ]
I.. like seeing you smile.
[ See? That much she at least has realised. S-She's getting there!! She's doing her best. ]
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[ It's in response to the poke, of course. Because Chizuru's mind sure would need a few moments to cope with everything else that's being thrown her way here, but the reaction to the sudden poke is so much more instinctive - especially when Chizuru is such a sensitive girl on top of it all. The gasp just escapes her, her body wincing (though not in any actually painful way, obviously) in the aftermath. ]
B-But I don't know what I want..!
[ It's not said with a whole lot of emotion. Sure, her voice is raised a little bit, but it's mostly in the surprised aftermath of the poke. There's no anger in that statement - please, this is Chizuru - but not really sadness either. It's just a very, very honest admission that flew out of her mouth a little easier than it usually would while trying to defend herself from further playful pokes that she's so sensitive to.
At least she does start to blush the moment she realises what she just said. Oh god, Chizuru, you're bringing the mood down, why are you doing this-- ]
I just know I want you to be happy. [ So that's what she's working with, in the face of a lack of any other want. The concept of wanting is so foreign to a girl like her, after all. ] Is that such a bad thing..? I mean, um.. nothing about this is making me sad.
[ Nothing about what she's doing here, she means. Chizuru's own thoughts are a different matter entirely, but that's not what she's addressing. Jinx's actions don't make her feel bad, she means, which is the only way Chizuru can explain this when it takes a lot for her to get to a level where she can realise what she likes. ]
I.. like seeing you smile.
[ See? That much she at least has realised. S-She's getting there!! She's doing her best. ]