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deercountry2022-12-30 03:25 am
opheliac) wrote in deercountry2022-12-30 03:25 am
★ JAN. (CATCH ALL); i look inside myself & see my heart is black
Who: jinx & YOU
When: all of january
Where: all throughout trench
What: things that will happen with her during this month. some will be open & some will be private.
Warnings: jinx suffers from mental illness. such as the following - schizophrenia, hallucinations, PTSD, & separation anxiety. these may or may not happen in this log. BIO, PERMS, & OP-OUT: Here
►TREEHOUSE VISITATION.◄
►THE CLINK N' CLANK.◄
code credit to:thisismanx
When: all of january
Where: all throughout trench
What: things that will happen with her during this month. some will be open & some will be private.
Warnings: jinx suffers from mental illness. such as the following - schizophrenia, hallucinations, PTSD, & separation anxiety. these may or may not happen in this log. BIO, PERMS, & OP-OUT: Here
WEEK 1 (01/01 - 01/07)
█ JINX ➜ 01.01 ➜ TDM EVENT.
WEEK 2 (01/08 - 01/14)
█ VI & MANABU ➜ 01.08 ➜ PRIVATE.
WEEK 3 (01/15 - 01/21)
N/A
WEEK 4 (01/22 - 01/28)
N/A
WEEK 5 (01/29 & 01/31)
N/A
code credit to:
thisismanx
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Gonna have to stop letting so much of his guard down. So he lets out a dismissive huff of air.]
I just don't have a lot to say. You don't see me responding all over the place to anyone else, do you? If I've got something to say, I'll tell you straight up.
[He pauses for a moment, the hoverboard slowing down as they get closer to the lamppost and the most of the danger seems to have passed.]
But if you want my input about something, you can always ask me yourself.
[Better to have her call him out directly than wonder what she may be doing in the background.]
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(there's a bit of an annoying growl in her tone when she says this; rolling her eyes which he isn't able to see her do. because she wanted him to say something. jinx was so ready to rip him apart with words or brag on how well she's been doing.
sure, he wasn't someone like sevika who constantly saw her as a nuisance, but he is/was still her enemy. and what better way to get back at your enemy than rubbing it in their face? ... but there is one thing she should address though. )
— So that also means you've read that I got a girlfriend now, huh?
( she told vi they should just leave ekko to be oblivious but... now that she's in a relationship --.)
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...Yeah. I saw that. Don't know her, but congrats. I'm happy for you.
[And concerned. Mostly concerned. Jinx isn't stable. He isn't sure what will happen if this girlfriend ends up going back to the sea. They were too used to losing people, but that didn't mean she would handle it well. But Jinx does seem happy, no matter how Jinx she's being about it.]
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and that's exactly what she does next. being obnoxious, she sticks her nose up in the air. )
She's pretty great. Reeeaallly cute. ( he didn't ask. ) And ya know what else? Coulda been you. But! — You had your shot and missed. One strike and ya get the boot! Too bad.
( she hops off his board with her fingers intertwine behind her back -- swaying in her step as she approaches to the lamppost on foot. )
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[--wait. Wait. Was she saying that he could have had her girlfriend's spot? With her? He's not oblivious enough to think she means he has a shot with Chizuru. He doesn't even know her. And thus the only other meaning is that...
Well, fuck. Shit.
He's staring at her with widened eyes. Did she really think that? Feel like that? Had he done something to make her think he wanted that? Was she expecting him to react? How had he not noticed? Did Vi know about this?
She's like his--They're his--Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
What is he even supposed to say to that? What is he even supposed to think about that? How long has he been silent staring at her like an idiot because this? He needs to get his shit together.]
...Guess I'll have to settle for being your friend.
[Her brother. Family. Like he always thought they were. How long had he been seeing them as family and Jinx had been seeing him as something else? Had Powder been like this--no. No. They were just dumbass kids back then. It couldn't have been.
...Right?]
slight NSFW sorry, one last flirt for the road for old times sake.
Friend? Hm... that's a bit of a stretch, dontcha think? Especially after ya hurt my feelings.
( and right when she's close enough, jinx swings her braid like a rope to throw over his neck. then there's a yank to force the gap between them to decrease; for him to tilt more down to her level. the pinks of her eyes flicker dangerously and her tongue trail along her canines.)
Ya know, Boy Savior. ( she starts off low and suggestive. ) — You really look good on the outside. ( her gaze darts steadily to his shoulders and his biceps. oh, what she would give. but it's only brief as she meets his eyes again -- tone dropping its seductive hint.)
Too bad you're dumb on the inside. And that's where we can't be compatible. Guess THAT game between us ends. But don't worry, I'll find a new game for us to play.
( she lets go of her braid and with a giggle, she does one twirl loop around him (with a feathery touch along his back and arm since it'll be the first and last she will ever get to feel that) then goes right back to heading for the lamppost.)
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Their faces are so close, too close. He's tense, but not sure what to do. Touch her to push her away? Make a joke? What is there to joke about with this?
Only then it's over and she lets go, letting him pull back unsteady, adjusting his weight on his hoverboard. She's walking away like it was all nothing. Like she hadn't dropped one of her flashy bombs right into the middle of his world view and blown it all up yet again.
He's gonna need time to think about this, to work through it, to settle it into his bones like every other truth he's had to accept when it comes to Jinx. And he's not ready for that right now. He grips his stopwatch, wishing he could rewind time enough to before she said anything and they could go back to their awkwardly rebuilding family again.
He's still staring at her back when he makes the decision. He kicks off, his hoverboard on the move, zooming right by her until he reaches the lamppost, grabbing it with a hand and spinning around with a loop, so he could stare right back at her, leaning against it.]
Keep switching games and you'll forget which ones you're playing. Guess I win this one. I'll win the next one, too.
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but then the girl huffs out a hum and her arms now drop back at her sides. )
You won 'cuz I let ya win. You lost your shot with me and I felt sorry for you. Your "win" is a pity one.
( she walks on again but this time, she avoids any sort of eye contact from him. and by the looks of it, jinx might be moving on beyond the lamppost but she doesn't. she only wanted him to be out of her viewing as her fingertips ghostly touch along the steel. there's a deep inhale as she shuts her eyes and silence -- as if she is building herself up for something. and she is... and that's courage. )
— It doesn't matter. ( she's only said three words so far and there's already so much to take from it. her tone is uneven and there's hurt and sorrow twined together. ) ... I'll be okay. I know I will.
( while ekko had been oblivious this whole time and who knows if he is considering telling her that his feelings aren't/were mutual, it seems jinx is giving him an out. an indication she is aware this had been one-sided and acknowledging this feeling wasn't a two-way street. he doesn't need to explain himself because she knows it already. the blue haired girl breathes out a bittersweet chuckle with a low shake of her head. )
Heh... I'll get over it. ( a beat. ) 'Cuz there's a girl who says she feels safe with me. Who thinks I can be a great person and not someone who is... messed up. She needs me to protect her and I'm gonna do that. Nothin' is gonna stand in my way.
( she's not necessarily saying all of this to ekko anymore but more so, to herself. to remind herself that although her little crush for him has crashed and burned before it got off the ground, there is someone else who is extending her hand out to her to lift her up. with chizuru by her, her heart will heal. )
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But things are different now. This isn't Zaun. They have been trying to coexist. And sometimes, for all the tension and history...it feels like they are getting closer to that. No matter what else is going on--whatever feelings may or may not be between them--they have made progress. She has made progress. Maybe he's proud of her for that. Does he even have a right to be?]
It's a crazy feeling, huh. When people look at you and believe in you like you could do all the things you tell yourself you can't. And you want to do it for them as much as they want it for you.
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( and once more, jinx falls quiet, but not long this time around.)
It's easier to have people think I'm a lost cause. Less pressure.
( there's a defeated sigh that leaves her lungs. her eyelids half lid as she gazes down to her feet and the snow. )
... Thanks for... seein' me as family. Dunno if the feeling's ever gonna be really mutual, but — ( a beat then a tiny chuckle. ) Vi and I are somehow makin' it work. So... who knows with us, huh? Eh heh heh...
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Then the bridge happened. Then Trench happened. And now, all Ekko can think of is that she's one of the most important people in his life and that hasn't changed. He can't trust her, but he wants the best for her. Maybe here, she can be better, have better, do better. They probably won't fix everything between them, but...]
Yeah. [He snorts softly.] Never would have thought we'd end up in some other world with an obsession with deer and squid, either. Nothing's impossible anymore.
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( the truth is, she wasn't planning on tinkering today. but after confessing her feelings, trying to convince herself she'll be okay, and lingering emotions, maybe tossing her brain into screws and wrenches won't be such a bad idea. )
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See ya around...
[He almost says "Powder," but he knows she's not. It just feels too familiar. He keeps his urge to himself.]
Next time, next race.
END!
( flicking her finger against the lamppost (cause she wants to), she shouts out her location (which is the PRUFROCK) and in a blink of an eye, she is gone. )