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โ JAN. (CATCH ALL); i look inside myself & see my heart is black
Who: jinx & YOU
When: all of january
Where: all throughout trench
What: things that will happen with her during this month. some will be open & some will be private.
Warnings: jinx suffers from mental illness. such as the following - schizophrenia, hallucinations, PTSD, & separation anxiety. these may or may not happen in this log. BIO, PERMS, & OP-OUT: Here


โบTREEHOUSE VISITATION.โ
โบTHE CLINK N' CLANK.โ
code credit to:
thisismanx
When: all of january
Where: all throughout trench
What: things that will happen with her during this month. some will be open & some will be private.
Warnings: jinx suffers from mental illness. such as the following - schizophrenia, hallucinations, PTSD, & separation anxiety. these may or may not happen in this log. BIO, PERMS, & OP-OUT: Here


WEEK 1 (01/01 - 01/07)
โ JINX โ 01.01 โ TDM EVENT.
WEEK 2 (01/08 - 01/14)
โ VI & MANABU โ 01.08 โ PRIVATE.
WEEK 3 (01/15 - 01/21)
N/A
WEEK 4 (01/22 - 01/28)
N/A
WEEK 5 (01/29 & 01/31)
N/A
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Still, he doesn't feel right about leaving her in the middle of the street when more of those holes could open up. As nervous as this whole situation makes him, he's glad she's down to stick together for a little longer. Plus, he needs to.... ask her. About that night.
So Peter stuffs his hands into the front pockets of his coat and nods, manages a little smile. ) I uh, actually live pretty close to here. And I've got plenty of smokes there. Stronger stuff too, if you want it.
( Kill two birds with one stone: it'd get him home and he can share some of his stash with the girl who just saved his life. )
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'Cuz of my fancy blood, it's hard for me to "relax", if ya catch my drift. The shrooms are good, but not likin' the weird imagery after that. So whaddya got exactly?
cw: drugs and alcohol mention
Really? Goddamn, that sounds annoying. ( Peter means it; not being able to get a good buzz or high or something because of your blood? That's fucking unfair. )
Got lots of weed โ fresh stuff. A guy here left me a bunch before he went home, and I've been growing my own on the side, too.
( He... needs marijuana if he's going to survive this place, and he's happy to share the wealth. The tragedy stoner has you covered. )
Got some beer too, if you want any.
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Cannabis sativa. ( she mutters this to herself. ) Is that the stuff I caught my sis havin'? With that really strong smell?
( and thinking more over it, it... make sense to use a plant like that to feel some effects given it components. but the question is: is it strong enough for her? shimmer and weed are in two completely different classes entirely -- extremely different categories. but given everyone here are in different realms, maybe it will be tough enough.
ah, right. he mentioned alcohol, too. )
With alcohol, I gotta drink 'least double digits to get tipsy. My blood's a real pain when it comes to the fun stuff.
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( People are generally divided between enjoying the potent smell of pot or hating it. ....Kind of like the taste of cilantro. But it sounds like Jinx has never had weed before, so Peter's taking a moment to addโ )
It's uh, safe. Weed, pot. Especially the kind I've got. No one's put anything weird in it.
( He's drawing nearer to the townhouse he lives in with Luna, awkwardly kind of hesitating as he nears the pale blue door. )
I can bring the stuff out to you if you want, or... do you wanna come in? I can show you how to do it, if you want.
( The pot, he means. But he also gets this girl doesn't know him at all and he's cool just lugging out some beers (she needs double digits, he'll remember that) and some joints for her to take home if she'd rather not step inside. )
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therefore, he is only granted about fifty percent of her attention. holding the strap of her machine gun, the girl lifts her head up at the housing in front of him -- observing it silently. it's amusing what sort of homes everyone is living in. in zaun, all of her people lived in the same structures -- there were no differentiations or personalities. )
( but here though: it seems it all depends on one's taste. the rookery is a big luxury mansion, sharon's home is a cute little homey cottage, and now peter's... not a mansion, but rather large still. and as for jinx? just a dinky little treehouse she made on her own. when peter asks whether she wanted to come in or stay outside, there's an eyeroll but a smile to follow suit. )
What, too shy to invite a girl in? Sheesh, I knew I called you a "Wet Noodle" but you really are one.
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Noโ yeahโ I mean I get I'm a strangerโ ( ...Peter, she is obviously not worried about you being a threat. And she has... a weapon on her person... Okay, he's actually pretty nervous about inviting this girl into his house, but it's happening and so he's just going to keep rolling with it. It takes him a second to get the door open but then finally... he's opening it for her, awkwardly taking a step back to let her in. )
It's just me and one other person here โ my girlfriend. Well, and a bunch of weird animals.. Oh uh, beer's in the kitchen. ( He gestures that way, where Luna's witchy kitchen can be seen, homey and cosy and comfortable-cluttered. Still, despite his anxiety, Peter's trying to make conversation as he toes out of his Converse sneakers and pads into the kitchen. )
So what do you do around here? Do you go to the school and stuff?
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while he takes off his sneakers, jinx doesn't part ways with her machine gun despite there is very little threat now. the grip is still tighten along the strap as she inspects the kitchen -- leaning close on a few items or cocking her head to them.
the mention of school gets a snort out of her, a quirk an eyebrow with a lopsided smirk. )
Pfffbbt, School? Why would I go to THAT when you can learn whatever ya need out here in the open world? โ Havin' your head shoved in a book all day is a quick way to get plucked off and killed.
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He sets them out on the counter with a clink and can't help a lopsided little grin at the reaction. Okay, mood. )
Honestly, the school here's a total waste of time. ( Peter's... hardly an ideal student.... He just kind of goes because he doesn't know what else to do, but he barely even shows up anymore. Or just sleeps through it. ) Like, I skip all the time and no one even cares. And the stuff they teach there is totally weird.
( He pauses before reaching for the beers again to tuck them in his arms and gesture towards the nearby living room. It's a cosy space, with a sofa and armchairs, and a big rug spread out in front of a warm fireplace. )
We can chill in there, it's warmer.
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( the last part of it she says in a sing-song way. it's also sarcastic with her fingers wiggling in the air. but she trails along behind peter to the living room and practically bounces onto the sofa to have a seat. it's then the girl finally sheds the machine gun off herself and rests it by her feet. as long as pow-pow is close, jinx is fine to part with it for now. )
Really cutesy digs ya got here, Wet Noodle. โ Guessin' the girly-girl did all the decor. How can you stand it?
( sure, jinx doesn't mind the girly things. after all, she paints her nails from time to time even if they get chipped. but unless a dress or hairstyle looks bad ass and not some prissy stuck-up stupid girl, she'll turn it down in a heartbeat. or vomit. )
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Y'all live together, right? You and Sansa? ( Or.... kind of. Jinx's treehouse is on the property, right? (Again, that's an awkward subject that he's going to have to round back to eventually..... You can't stall forever, Peter.) )
Ohโ yeah, this is all her. She's good at making stuff look comfy, right? ( Peter casts a glance around at the decor, all the books on the shelves and cosy blankets, and a few plants draped around. It's definitely cutey-witchycore. ) A lot better than me, my room's a mess. Oh, wait, speaking ofโ
( Peter gives an awkward shuffle to the side, leg bumping the couch as he moves. ) The weed's up in my room. Can't forget that! I'll uh, be right back.
( Is he slightly nervous about leaving Jinx and her machine gun alone down in the living room? Yes, but, the pot's what they came here for! So just excuse Peter as he shuffles up the nearby staircase and returns after a few minutes with a little tin. He'll sit back down and flip it open to reveal some pre-rolled joints all in a nice little row. )
You want one now, or after some beer? Or both at the same time.
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( jinx will give peter a thumbs up as he vanishes off to retrieve whatever he needs to get. and while he is away, jinx peeks around nosily and even swipes a few knick knacks at her reach to shove in her pockets. while her older sibling scold her so many times over her thievery, it's such a painful old habit of hers and she can't quite kick it. when he's back, the girl sits still to perform the illusion she hadn't moved a single inch while he was away. her eyes dart down to the tin with wild curiosity -- especially at the question.)
Why not both? Let's get bonkers with it! โ So you smoke 'em like you do cigarettes, right?
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(He also has no idea about the swiped belongings and probably won't realise until Luna points out that something's missing.... rip to them, too.....)
There's a lopsided little smile when she says both, and he nods, not at all going to suggest otherwise (look at Peter, already being so obedient to her...) )
Sure, both's cool. And mostly, but it's just a little different. Here, I'll uh, demonstrate. ( He picks out a joint and fishes a lighter out of his pocket, holding it up to light the end. Then, pinching the thing inbetween two fingers, he places the other end inbetween his lips and draws in a slow, calm breath. He holds it, then slowly lets it out with a puff of fog. It's all just a little more intentional that regular cigarettes, working the smoke around how you need it. )
You wanna kind of... hold it in for a little bit. Not tight, just really relaxed. Let it roll around in your lungs and then come back out. You should definitely feel it.
( It might take a little bit to feel the high itself, but the smoke? You'll know if it's going in and out right. Thick and hazy and a little raw against your throat. Peter holds up the lighter and tin for her to pick one out too, giving a dumb grin. )
And before you know it? You're just chillin.
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so with very little fear or nerves, jinx leans forward to pick the joint but not the lighter. instead, she lifts both her eyebrows and points up a single digit; blazing her up a few small electric sparks at the tip. )
Got my own.
( following his instructions, she lights up the end, places it in her mouth as she pinches it, then a slow inhale. and then she holds the smoke in place, even shuts her eyes to help vision the vapor swirling down her throat then to her lungs. then after a few seconds, she blows it out -- a quick glance to the joint then him. jinx hums with a nod before she slouches against the couch. )
You're right, Noods. It is a lil' different. ... I like it.
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He looks up with a lift of his own eyebrows as the girl conjures her own means of lighting up the joint, looking impressed. Oh damn, that's handy... ) Nice.
( Before he leans back to take a couple more long drags of his own, watching Jinx to see how she reacts to it. Pot's nothing too crazy, some people do cough, but it looks like all's gone well and Peter grins again. )
Right? It's real mellow. I like having one when I need to just... chill out. At the end of the day or something.
( The beers are within easy reach, so he'll lean forward to take a sip of one of those, too. Before he tips it at her, curiously. )
Coldblood? Or maybe Darkblood? That one's mine.
( The power she'd displayed. Course, it could be something she came here with, but he's seen both those blood types do similar stuff. )
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Ya know, I don't really know much about all the others and what they do. Just know Vilebloods all about toxins. Paleblood is...the pure shit? I dunno, the name itself sounds like it's for all the nice people.
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Oh Paleblood, that's Luna's. My girlfriend. She's pretty nice, yeah.
( Which is an understatement, and he gives a little smile, half-lidded eyes warming in a way he doesn't have much control over whenever Luna's name makes an appearance. )
Palebloods are really... attuned to stuff. Like on a higher level; she gets visions and stuff. Darkblood's supposed to be warping reality, or something like that. Weird.
They have stuff like that where you're from? Magic?
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Arcane magic was somethin' you were born with back home. โ But two kooky scientists believed magic can be forged with magic. And behold, it can be done...!
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Scientists making magic... that's pretty dope. ( Not the kind of thing that'd be expected, he thinks. Science and magic seem like they're usually existing at opposite ends of a spectrum. )
I was thinking Vi must be from a world that had stuff like that. She never seemed too phased by this place.
( Not even after my demon fucking broke her arm, comes the intrusive thought, and Peter internally winces against it. Takes a longer, deeper swallow of beer, and realises he's already through with one, sets the empty thing aside. )
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( jinx takes one more drag too and then decides, okay that's enough. she wants to be at least kinda coherent. and not entirely sure what to do with the rest, the girl extends it back out for him to take in case he wants more? or... maybe there's something he does special with the leftovers.
the buzz is definitely coming through for her -- now instead of slouching, she lies back onto the sofa. )
Liiiiiiike Trenchies. We were called that back home. If not Zaunites.
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He takes the joint back when Jinx offers it to him, snuffs it out and sets it back in the tin. Oh yeah, he'll definitely recycle this... Meanwhile Peter keeps taking hits of his own, slow but steady as he listens, eyes half-lulled and languidly looking over at her. Trenchies, huh. He has to wonder where that came from. Anything considered a "trench" is usually not a great place to be, and he's picked up on some snippets from Vi here and there about what it maybe was like. Didn't sound good. )
Is it... better here? Or was back home better?
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( she says this while shifting a little more on the sofa. jinx gets comfortable even further as she lies on her back -- hands resting on her stomach. )
If we're talkin' about people, this place is better. Zaunites got your back sometimes. There's still a lotta backstabbers lurking in the shadows. The city itself? Hm...
( there's a moment where she thinks this over carefully; very carefully due to having a hazed mind. )
It's good to breathe here. But Zaun has no beasts. ( a beat. ) โ Well, they kinda do, but not the same thing.
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While he's listening, he's slouching back into the cushions like a piece of melted cheese, one arm draped lazily over his stomach while the other keeps his joint pressed to his mouth. For as much as chatting with a stranger is intimidating (especially one who carries a powerful weapon around), Jinx is actually pretty easy to talk to. )
Beasts like.... monsters? Or like people?
( Because he knows the word can mean both, and there's an uneasy tug in the center of his chest for some reason (he knows the reason). )
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There were some out there who just wanted to... kick all of us around. Just 'cuz it made them feel good. They were monsters to me. And always will be no matter what my sis says.
( jinx turns her head to look over to him -- quiet for a second or two. ) What was your world like? Lemme guess, cushy and boring? You kept your head down a lot and did what you were told.
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But Jinx's question has him freezing, something visibly wounded pinching his expression for a moment. It hurts, like a thumb pressed too hard against a bruise.
'kept your head down and did what you were told'
โHe did, but it wasn't because his world was cushy and boring, no, his world was a fucking nightmare and every day he wanted to be somebody else. He had to keep his head down, in order to survive in that house. And it's because of that, because he did nothing, that his little sister's dead. He killed her.
Peter feels his stomach coiling in on itself like a snake, Jinx's words fueling the guilt that lives inside him. He feels the ghost of Charlie, small and soft and in so much pain. He pushes through a response. )
It was.... really different from this place. No literal monsters or anything like that. Just people ones. ( There's more to that, though. He could pretend there's not. But he keeps going. )
...Well, I always thought there weren't literal monsters. Turns out there were, they were just... hidden. Growing up, I didn't know they were there. ( Witches and demons and a group of people surrounded by flickering candlelight who wanted to break him open and fill him up with something else. She saw it, this girl. The dark thing inside of him. Does she recognise him? It's there, he needs to ask her, and he feels sick suddenly, lowers his joint with a shaking hand. )
Do you remember.... what happened? Do you remember me?
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