[ Ange's voice is still relatively light and casual, even though she's definitely talking about a serious topic here with him. Maybe it's partially because she feels like she has to be the strong one here in the face of his nerves, but it's also because it's not as hard to talk about this in the face of what Peter himself is admitting.
After all, what's a little vulnerability in the face of someone who constantly shows her vulnerability of his own? ]
I know I'm acting all cool, like I'm not worried about anything, like we're going to be fine no matter what.. But I'm definitely expecting the worst to happen any moment.
[ Look, the only reason she didn't want to say that was because she didn't want to worry Peter, but.. well, it's still just true. Ange is pessimistic in nature, after all. There's no way she isn't expecting this place to throw something at them in this jungle that she just can't beat, no matter what she said earlier. ]
I'm terrified that I'll screw up, and that you'll get hurt here. That I won't be strong enough to protect you. [ Mind you, there's no fear for herself. It's what happesn when you grow up in a constant state of danger - you stop caring about it.
But Ange has never had other people around who could get hurt, which makes that infinitely more scary. ]
But.. that's exactly why I know I just have to do what I can to make sure you stay safe, no matter what happens. No matter how scary the thought of you getting hurt is, it just means I have to give it my all to keep you safe. No matter how I think about it.. I just keep returning to that thought. I can't just give up on protecting a friend, just because some odds might be against me.
[ She mostly just hopes that he can see it too. That being afraid, or being worried.. it doesn't matter. You can be worried, afraid, and brave.
She knows that Peter has got to have it in him too, somewhere. ]
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[ Ange's voice is still relatively light and casual, even though she's definitely talking about a serious topic here with him. Maybe it's partially because she feels like she has to be the strong one here in the face of his nerves, but it's also because it's not as hard to talk about this in the face of what Peter himself is admitting.
After all, what's a little vulnerability in the face of someone who constantly shows her vulnerability of his own? ]
I know I'm acting all cool, like I'm not worried about anything, like we're going to be fine no matter what.. But I'm definitely expecting the worst to happen any moment.
[ Look, the only reason she didn't want to say that was because she didn't want to worry Peter, but.. well, it's still just true. Ange is pessimistic in nature, after all. There's no way she isn't expecting this place to throw something at them in this jungle that she just can't beat, no matter what she said earlier. ]
I'm terrified that I'll screw up, and that you'll get hurt here. That I won't be strong enough to protect you. [ Mind you, there's no fear for herself. It's what happesn when you grow up in a constant state of danger - you stop caring about it.
But Ange has never had other people around who could get hurt, which makes that infinitely more scary. ]
But.. that's exactly why I know I just have to do what I can to make sure you stay safe, no matter what happens. No matter how scary the thought of you getting hurt is, it just means I have to give it my all to keep you safe. No matter how I think about it.. I just keep returning to that thought. I can't just give up on protecting a friend, just because some odds might be against me.
[ She mostly just hopes that he can see it too. That being afraid, or being worried.. it doesn't matter. You can be worried, afraid, and brave.
She knows that Peter has got to have it in him too, somewhere. ]