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ota | it's only after disaster we're asked to distinguish
Who: Illarion and OPEN
What: Fighting about colors, spicy trespassing, and spicier food
When: Throughout October
Where: All over Trench
Warnings: Brief mention of a dead child.
i. what color is your red?
It has been half a decade since Illarion last put much thought into his appearance. Undeath erased many of life's desires and muted those that remained. Eyes' thrall eradicated individual interests that couldn't be bent to serve the Unearthed. What either of them didn't stamp out, the Prince of Locusts might ridicule into nonexistence, and the Knights Pariah couldn't afford to indulge in the middle of a war. An elven man's interest in looking his best was one of those little things that fell easily by the wayside under those pressures.
With no potential lovers in Trench to impress, nor anyone who knew him living to preen for, Illarion wouldn't have given his lapsed habits a second thought...except for the Black Parade. Every local he'd encountered from the minute he'd set foot in the city had mentioned it, and more, the warding power of a good disguise. Some had even offered to paint his face for him--offers he'd kindly declined, because they'd gotten him thinking: Who knew better how to do his paints and feathers than he did, himself?
And: Why not do them himself? Hadn't he earned the leave?
The initial burst of excitement over the idea (pathetic as it was, in retrospect) didn't last beyond locating some unusual crystals and foraged nuts to trade for what he wanted. That was, he was finding, common in undeath; no excitement or pleasant feeling stayed for very long. But even that fleeting emotion had been enough for him to build a plan on, and a solid plan could see him through any task he put his mind to.
Though maybe not without causing problems out of boredom along the way. By the time he gets to Willful Machine and finds the traders in paint and cosmetics, he's itching to instigate something as much as he's interested in finding some good kohl. An immediate opportunity to cause mischief presents itself in the form of his blindness: Of course, he needs to have the colors of what he's buying described to him... And that means ample room for disagreement on what colors certain things are.
This sets the stage for a scenario that plays out at least three times over the next couple of hours:
Illarion approaches one of the many individuals offering face-painting services, offering to trade for a paint that matches his face stripes. Aha! goes his unfortunate victim, who then produces a pot of paint in Warmblood red. "Will this do?"
"Ah--it grieves me to say, I cannot actually see it; will you tell me what color it is?"
"Warmblood red."
There's an odd gleam in Illarion's unfocused eyes. "And what color do you call my stripes?"
"Just the same--red as Warmblood."
At this the shrike gives a deeply affected sigh and shakes his head. "No, that cannot be--there is much less of the high-violet in my stripes than even blood; they are not the same."
Several minutes and paint samples pass before Illarion turns back toward the crowd to yell at a Sleeper at random; maybe it's someone he recognizes by ((feel)), maybe not! "You, Sleeper--are you a mammal? What color is your red? We need someone to settle this!"
Or, if it's the painter who gets exasperated first: "Hey, Sleeper! You over there! Come tell this fellow my paint matches his stripes; he won't believe me!" Because surely it's a Sleeper problem he's having, and not anything else.
ii. maps and territories (cw: child death mention)
Trench is a fascinating city.
It is also Illarion's new territory and responsibility for the foreseeable future. Establishing a proper patrol around and across it required a map, and a map--when you're blind--required direct experience.
Not needing sleep, he takes the nights to explore. This sometimes means walking the streets in the ordinary fashion, alone and lost in his own thoughts as he counts alleyways and enumerates lampposts. Wandering like that isn't the safest pursuit with Cloverfield's curse lying heavy on the city, but the corpse that trails him--sometimes a mutilated and statuesque woman of his own kind with blue-and-black hair, sometimes a neck-broken child with his eyes and colors--is at least still indistinct in its appearance and lethargic in its movements. He, like all the other cursed, doesn't notice it.
He doesn't notice it even when it follows him into yards and up drainpipes and over walls--for a simple ground-level survey from the street isn't enough to really know a territory, and he's not shy about trespassing anywhere that seems presently unoccupied... Or simply unwatched. Each district presents a different (and thrilling) set of challenges in making a more detailed map of it. Crenshaw's both watched heavily by Hunters--who want avoiding or placating, by turns--and full of empty houses; he does his best to avoid the latter while making scandalous use of the former (a jaunt through a solid wall to an interior stairwell is a quick way to the top floor and onward). In Willfull Machine, avoiding the canals is something of an art form, though at least once he leaps down into an occupied boat to share a ride; otherwise, no one looks twice at a figure fleeing across the rooftops. The wall-to-wall crowds in Cellar Door (to say nothing of the noise) send him seeking abandon places, slinking through back alleys that are still baroque and lovely in their design. Navigating Prufrock above street-level seems to be an open challenge to Hunters spoiling for different training than the Gate can provide, and he finds himself in more than one impromptu game of cat-and-bird when someone decides to follow him.
Whichever the night, whatever the district, there's one constant: Sometime, somewhere, he'll come across something small and breakable, and destroy it. Whether it's tiles kicked off rooftops to shatter on the street below or an abandoned statuette beheaded, a rope cut or a flower trampled, he ruins these little things with the negligent malice of a cat pushing a cup off a table...and always looks regretful as he does.
iii. bird peppers
A shrike's uncanny abilities always came at cost, Illarion's no less than any other's--even if he no longer had to pay that cost in sanity. Spending his nights flexing his unworldly powers makes for hungry days, and while food's plentiful wherever Trench celebrates the Black Parade, even a death-limited palette can grow tired of an endless buffet of sweets and roasted pumpkin seeds. The need for a little variety brings him to Willful Machine and the food vendors there sometime mid-month--and oh, the variety! It's enough to spark interest even from him, however transient.
Today's take, paid for with a handful of strange chitinous black feathers that might have come off a slain Beast, include two dead partridges and their feathers, and an entire box of bright purple peppers. He's got the former tied by their feet and slung over a shoulder and is merrily eating one of the latter like it's an apple, much to the obvious horror of the woman who traded them to him.
Obvious horror might, in fact, be the point. Especially given how quick he is to offer one of his prizes to anyone that gets too close to him. "You are sure you would not like one?"
The mock-innocence is deceptive. Don't take that pepper.
iv. wildcard
((Illarion might also be found throughout the month learning the role of a Disciple in Cassandra and taking incense to various districts of Trench; or, later on, making time to stop and talk to both Cloverfield and anyone suffering from the curse. If none of these starters suit, hit me up on Discord at Plagueheart#0051 or via DM to this journal!))
What: Fighting about colors, spicy trespassing, and spicier food
When: Throughout October
Where: All over Trench
Warnings: Brief mention of a dead child.
i. what color is your red?
It has been half a decade since Illarion last put much thought into his appearance. Undeath erased many of life's desires and muted those that remained. Eyes' thrall eradicated individual interests that couldn't be bent to serve the Unearthed. What either of them didn't stamp out, the Prince of Locusts might ridicule into nonexistence, and the Knights Pariah couldn't afford to indulge in the middle of a war. An elven man's interest in looking his best was one of those little things that fell easily by the wayside under those pressures.
With no potential lovers in Trench to impress, nor anyone who knew him living to preen for, Illarion wouldn't have given his lapsed habits a second thought...except for the Black Parade. Every local he'd encountered from the minute he'd set foot in the city had mentioned it, and more, the warding power of a good disguise. Some had even offered to paint his face for him--offers he'd kindly declined, because they'd gotten him thinking: Who knew better how to do his paints and feathers than he did, himself?
And: Why not do them himself? Hadn't he earned the leave?
The initial burst of excitement over the idea (pathetic as it was, in retrospect) didn't last beyond locating some unusual crystals and foraged nuts to trade for what he wanted. That was, he was finding, common in undeath; no excitement or pleasant feeling stayed for very long. But even that fleeting emotion had been enough for him to build a plan on, and a solid plan could see him through any task he put his mind to.
Though maybe not without causing problems out of boredom along the way. By the time he gets to Willful Machine and finds the traders in paint and cosmetics, he's itching to instigate something as much as he's interested in finding some good kohl. An immediate opportunity to cause mischief presents itself in the form of his blindness: Of course, he needs to have the colors of what he's buying described to him... And that means ample room for disagreement on what colors certain things are.
This sets the stage for a scenario that plays out at least three times over the next couple of hours:
Illarion approaches one of the many individuals offering face-painting services, offering to trade for a paint that matches his face stripes. Aha! goes his unfortunate victim, who then produces a pot of paint in Warmblood red. "Will this do?"
"Ah--it grieves me to say, I cannot actually see it; will you tell me what color it is?"
"Warmblood red."
There's an odd gleam in Illarion's unfocused eyes. "And what color do you call my stripes?"
"Just the same--red as Warmblood."
At this the shrike gives a deeply affected sigh and shakes his head. "No, that cannot be--there is much less of the high-violet in my stripes than even blood; they are not the same."
Several minutes and paint samples pass before Illarion turns back toward the crowd to yell at a Sleeper at random; maybe it's someone he recognizes by ((feel)), maybe not! "You, Sleeper--are you a mammal? What color is your red? We need someone to settle this!"
Or, if it's the painter who gets exasperated first: "Hey, Sleeper! You over there! Come tell this fellow my paint matches his stripes; he won't believe me!" Because surely it's a Sleeper problem he's having, and not anything else.
ii. maps and territories (cw: child death mention)
Trench is a fascinating city.
It is also Illarion's new territory and responsibility for the foreseeable future. Establishing a proper patrol around and across it required a map, and a map--when you're blind--required direct experience.
Not needing sleep, he takes the nights to explore. This sometimes means walking the streets in the ordinary fashion, alone and lost in his own thoughts as he counts alleyways and enumerates lampposts. Wandering like that isn't the safest pursuit with Cloverfield's curse lying heavy on the city, but the corpse that trails him--sometimes a mutilated and statuesque woman of his own kind with blue-and-black hair, sometimes a neck-broken child with his eyes and colors--is at least still indistinct in its appearance and lethargic in its movements. He, like all the other cursed, doesn't notice it.
He doesn't notice it even when it follows him into yards and up drainpipes and over walls--for a simple ground-level survey from the street isn't enough to really know a territory, and he's not shy about trespassing anywhere that seems presently unoccupied... Or simply unwatched. Each district presents a different (and thrilling) set of challenges in making a more detailed map of it. Crenshaw's both watched heavily by Hunters--who want avoiding or placating, by turns--and full of empty houses; he does his best to avoid the latter while making scandalous use of the former (a jaunt through a solid wall to an interior stairwell is a quick way to the top floor and onward). In Willfull Machine, avoiding the canals is something of an art form, though at least once he leaps down into an occupied boat to share a ride; otherwise, no one looks twice at a figure fleeing across the rooftops. The wall-to-wall crowds in Cellar Door (to say nothing of the noise) send him seeking abandon places, slinking through back alleys that are still baroque and lovely in their design. Navigating Prufrock above street-level seems to be an open challenge to Hunters spoiling for different training than the Gate can provide, and he finds himself in more than one impromptu game of cat-and-bird when someone decides to follow him.
Whichever the night, whatever the district, there's one constant: Sometime, somewhere, he'll come across something small and breakable, and destroy it. Whether it's tiles kicked off rooftops to shatter on the street below or an abandoned statuette beheaded, a rope cut or a flower trampled, he ruins these little things with the negligent malice of a cat pushing a cup off a table...and always looks regretful as he does.
iii. bird peppers
A shrike's uncanny abilities always came at cost, Illarion's no less than any other's--even if he no longer had to pay that cost in sanity. Spending his nights flexing his unworldly powers makes for hungry days, and while food's plentiful wherever Trench celebrates the Black Parade, even a death-limited palette can grow tired of an endless buffet of sweets and roasted pumpkin seeds. The need for a little variety brings him to Willful Machine and the food vendors there sometime mid-month--and oh, the variety! It's enough to spark interest even from him, however transient.
Today's take, paid for with a handful of strange chitinous black feathers that might have come off a slain Beast, include two dead partridges and their feathers, and an entire box of bright purple peppers. He's got the former tied by their feet and slung over a shoulder and is merrily eating one of the latter like it's an apple, much to the obvious horror of the woman who traded them to him.
Obvious horror might, in fact, be the point. Especially given how quick he is to offer one of his prizes to anyone that gets too close to him. "You are sure you would not like one?"
The mock-innocence is deceptive. Don't take that pepper.
iv. wildcard
((Illarion might also be found throughout the month learning the role of a Disciple in Cassandra and taking incense to various districts of Trench; or, later on, making time to stop and talk to both Cloverfield and anyone suffering from the curse. If none of these starters suit, hit me up on Discord at Plagueheart#0051 or via DM to this journal!))
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"Hm?" All right, Varian, he can't see you but he definitely knows you are in fact a tiny noodle-armed boy. The offer brings a smile to his face for that reason--well, and the kindness of it. "I have it, but thank you." He hefts the package to demonstrate this, before tucking it away in--yes, that's his welcome bag he's using as a backpack.
...And yes, his Lamp Friend is still in there; it pokes its little arms out to take the package with obvious glee.
"Where to do you propose we go?"
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"Well, if you want me to try to get to creating a colour," oh yeah, he's still serious about that. "Then we'd be better in my lab. All my stuff is there."
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He gives a little huff of a laugh at Varian's proposal. "We need only make a way for mammals to see a color first, not yet invent one. Though," now that he's thinking of it, "I suppose these may be the same thing, from a certain point of view, yes?"
Given a direction he'll as gladly go to it as stick around, and Cassandra's at least quieter than Willful Machine. He starts off for the nearest lamp, making sure not to walk so fast Varian can't keep up.
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"Hmmmmm that's true. Well, I can definitely put together the sort of light spectrum we'd need for that, at least," it'll be a FUN project.
He appreciates the slower speed. Between having short legs and one of them being a prosthetic, he can't move that fast. But soon they get to the Lamp Friend and are quickly on the way to the Disaster House's lawn.
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Not that anything else in Trench could see into ultraviolet to tell the difference between proper and improper. At least, nothing he'd met had. But it was good for his own sense of vanity to know he'd match.
"Perhaps I should have taken samples of all his colors, do you think?" he wonders aloud, as they make the transition through the Lamp.
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He sounds horribly confident - regardless of if that's well-placed or not- as they appear back on the Disaster House lawn. He strides towards the building.
"Don't worry, we've absolutely got this!"
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At least, Illarion thinks wryly to himself, they're only fooling around with paint and a light. Nothing explosive, nothing mechanical. Neatly limits the truly fatal mischief their enthusiasm could get them into.
"Such confidence! Have you mixed much paint before?" It could be mockery, but the grin on the shrike's face keeps it from that. "Or are we growing our wings on the way down?
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"Well, I made some glow-in-the-dark paint in the dream, we needed to be able to see when the sun basically...vanished for a bit there," the dream was wild. "But I haven't made this specific kind of paint before so it's definitely a...growing our wings thing. But I'm sure we'll be fine."
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"We will be fine," Illarion affirms, as he clatters down the stairs after Varian. "The worst that happens if we mix this paint wrong is I do not look quite so ravishing as I could, for an evening." All said with a heavy leavening of humor; like anyone undead was going to be ravishing in the first place.
"I have your notes with me, by the by. It is fortunate to have run into you; I meant to return them today." Meant to and then got distracted by cosmetics. Vain bird.
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"Don't worry, I'm sure you could figure out a way to pull off ravishing if you really wanted to- just exude a little...uh confidence or something. People'll buy confidence. Besides, you look fine to me."
Sorry Illarion, Varian's dating a boy made of grass. His concept of beauty is very different to other people's.
"Oh great!, he starts making some space on one of his tables- haphazardly moving various beakers and test tubes aside for the paint. "Did you manage to get any good information out of them?"
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Illarion laughs aloud at the compliment, though not in any sarcastic way. "Thank you for the kindness. Though, you understand, if I were trying this thing with any seriousness I must look better than merely fine.
"Though it helps to know I have no rivals here." Male competition among elves could get fierce and so much of it was based on looks.
He halts near Varian and the table, pausing to dig the notes from his bag as he does. Or, less "dig them out" and more request them from his in-bag quartermaster and Lamp Friend. The package of paint comes out next. "Where do you wish these, the notes and then the paint? --And, I have still not gotten through all of them, but what I have listened to, it fills in gaps in what the Disciples share. I am grateful to have this; what has happened to their traditions and history is not such a surprise, but it would be much harder to recover the truth without your experience of the Dream."
Speaking almost as if he'd done exactly that kind of thing before. (Not exactly, but he'd nearly been married to someone who had.)
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He smiles, reaching to take the notes away, patting the table (loud enough for Illarion to hear, just in case) before putting the notes back where they belong in the other pile of notes and folders he has which exist in a filing system known only to him.
"I'm glad it helped a little. I know a lot of the figures they talk about are...relatively new. Aside from the Moss King- I definitely remember running into him in the Dream. Though he's...definitely his own person. Still, even a little insight is better than nothing, right?"
He moves to focus on the paints- because this is exciting.
"Right! Let's see what we can do with these colours."
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"Oh, yes. I suspect there is more than a little insight to be had, once I am through with my own studies. And speak to some of the parties involved, who might still remember. The False Patron among them." Though an opportunity to speak to Mother Mercy might require some engineering.
And he could certainly perseverate on the Patrons for much longer--he's chosen to join the Disciples for a reason--but Varian's excitement is contagious. A little surprisingly, to Illarion, but it's a pleasant surprise.
"Yes! What are you minded to try first?"
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He does sound pretty amused by that though. He and Fern are complete disasters, but somehow together they manage to create one functioning person. At the mention of the False Patron, Varian's entire demeanour changes abruptly. His shoulders tense, as he sucks in a deep breath. That would always be a delicate subject.
"Be careful if you go near that one," his tone is even- no humour in it. "As much as I believe in second chances, she's... well. We're going to have to wait and see if she's genuine or not. I have my doubts."
But then, she did so much bad in the name of her loved ones, and isn't that what Varian did himself? It makes his judgement on Mother Mercy a little more than black and white. Still, focusing on the paints is far better than thinking about her. The cheer in his voice is a little more forced now, but he's trying.
"Well, I have a few different lights already. I was thinking of painting a stipe of each colour and seeing how they reacted to each of the lights- what sort of shades we get and then figure out how to adjust things from there.
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Or so the idealized version of elven courtship went, but even Illarion had never had to do that. "Still, I am happy for both of you. This is a comfortable place to be."
There is one benefit to not having much for emotions any longer, and it's that he can't miss that comfortable place so keenly. One wistful moment of longing, and--gone. Off to the next concern.
Like--ah, he's really tripped over himself there, hasn't he. He goes instantly alert at the indrawn breath--distress, that says, and ambush--but relaxes as quickly once he's verified there's nothing threatening them. The danger Varian's responding to is in the encysted past.
"It is my intent," he replies, gravely, "to treat her with as much caution as a snake. I do not enjoy being bitten."
And he's got a great deal of experience with someone who'd used his natural pity and affection against him. Never again.
The paints are far more pleasant to dwell on than that. "This seems sensible enough. I suppose you may want me under the, what is it, the blacklight as well? As a reference."
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"Honestly, I think it was all my flaws that caught his eye more than anything else," he admits fondly. "But yeah, I'm really lucky I have him. No matter what this place throws at us, we figure out a way to survive it and help each other out."
And help each other deal with all their huge life hurdles which always threaten to trip them up. Like his issues with Mother Mercy. He offers Illarion a smile he's not sure the man can see- to show no hard feelings.
"That's wise. I really do hope she's going to turn her life around, but... well, she did a lot of damage. She hated us and wanted nothing more than for us to be eradicated. Treating...treating her with caution is smart."
Ah, but this is much more pleasant.
"Sure, why not?! It shouldn't do any damage."
Probably. Stick his whole damn head under there.
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It is, truly, good to know Varian--specifically, and the other prior Sleepers, more broadly--carried such bonds over with them from the Nightmare, to Trench. Even though Illarion had only been in the city a few weeks, he'd quickly picked up on how traumatized many of them seemed. Escaping that, in the face of unrelenting horror, would require some very tight bonds.
Even so, he'd need to be more circumspect about digging into that trauma too indelicately. He well knows his own capacity (the broken, instilled need) for cruelty, in the pursuit of curiosity or otherwise, and...asking about the past could become an unfortunate outlet. He nods grave concession to Varian's judgment, letting any further questions go.
"Very well. You will need to indicate for me the best spot; I am thinking..." He will skulk over to the table as he thinks, head canted to one side to ((feel)) the whole situation out. He could probably sit up high enough on the floor to get his head on the table, maybe...
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Between their lives back home and their lives in Trench and Deerington, they've been pretty solid anchors for one another. Varian's not sure if he could have survived any of this world without Fern being there- and he's pretty sure Fern would say the same thing about him. It's one thing he learned quickly in the dream- you need to be able to count on people around you. Not doing that is where...well, things get bad really quickly.
He appreciates Illarion not going too deeply into it. His experiences with Mother Superior are deeply linked with his experiences back home. Of the person he used to be. It's a part of himself he takes a while to share with other people. It's a complicated mess that he'd rather not drop on anyone if he can help it.
"Not a problem. Go to the right a tiiiny little bit and then just a little higher and you're there."