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deercountry2022-06-09 07:08 pm
swornto) wrote in deercountry2022-06-09 07:08 pm
Entry tags:
it catches up eventually
Who: Oz Vessalius, Xerxes Break, & Close CR
What: Oz becomes corrupted and dies, then Break gets stuck in a miserable timeloop.
When: June 15th (forward-dated)
Where: Pandora House & The Forest Around
Content Warnings: Suicidal Ideation, Beasthood Suicide, Child Endangerment
A Cycle of Misery
Please use the top-levels below, because there are timeloop shenanigans to keep orderly!
What: Oz becomes corrupted and dies, then Break gets stuck in a miserable timeloop.
When: June 15th (forward-dated)
Where: Pandora House & The Forest Around
Content Warnings: Suicidal Ideation, Beasthood Suicide, Child Endangerment
A Cycle of Misery
Please use the top-levels below, because there are timeloop shenanigans to keep orderly!
cw: murder talk in this thread
Maybe it was different in someway, maybe because it was more personal than it had been before. She didn't know. But here she was talking about that exact thing she didn't want to talk or worry anyone else about just because... she didn't want to worry someone about her behavior.]
Yeah... my first month here. I went out exploring one day and came across someone in a crazed state with either a knife or a sword... I don't actually remember. Not exactly something I can handle it turns out.
[Her hands went to her shoulder for a brief moment. She couldn't reach where the scars were exactly at least the ones on the back. Her eyes glanced down as her hand moved to where the heart would be. Her words were sad as she spoke them.] I have three scars over all because of it, two in the back in which one seems to mirror this one here...
[So it was obvious if it was in front of the heart why it was there anyway.]
That...is probably why I'm acting the way I am now. Worrying those I care about while trying not to and I'm sorry for that. But it gives me an understanding as to what to expect when Onii-chan comes back. What I can do to help and make him comfortable...
[Which in it's own way was rather sad to know. What side effects could happen and how long it took for her to even recover when she came back. She knew what it could be like.]
Your the first person I've actually... told. People know I died obviously, but not the how.
cw: homicidal thoughts
Only with Ada, the person who hurt her doesn’t sound like someone close to her. He should have been here. He should have been here earlier, but he was useless.]
Any scars you have are nothing to be ashamed of.
[His voice is louder than he intended, trying to distract himself from his own violent thoughts, but they don’t go away easily. They never do.]
This person who did this— Are they still around?
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But was that the same thing but in a different way? She didn't know. All she knew was that they were there and would be there permanently.]
They are just a reminder to never put myself in that situation again... somehow.
[She hadn't figured out the how just yet. But she soon paused. She really should have expected that question really.]
Yeah, he is. I spoke to him recently.
cw: homicidal thoughts this whole thread probably
[Gil repeats softly, not quite believing his own ears. He clings to the arm of the chair, digging his nails in til his knuckles turn white.
He'll kill him. He'll kill the person who hurt his dear friend. But even that won't undo the tragedy Ada has experienced. It won't heal any scars. Gil sinks away from the chair, dropping to his knees so that he's bowing in front of Ada.]
You won't be put in that situation ever again, Mis-- Ada. You have my word. I will keep you safe.
cw: homicidal thoughts this whole thread probably
[And considering what she had seen she had at least learned she had never been the first person he had killed. Perhaps killed here in Trench sure, but not in general which was a bit worrying. But Ada was working her way towards forgiveness like she always does.
It was to be expected that Gilbert would act a certain way, considering what she had just told him being protective was par for the course. But she couldn't be exactly sure he could keep his word. She wanted to at least believe it either way as she smiled.]
I... will trust your word on that, even if the world might not necessarily make it easy.
Re: cw: homicidal thoughts this whole thread probably
[The more he learns, the more horrified he becomes. He keeps digging his hand into his thigh, so that he won't reach for his gun and leave right then and there to find the scumbag who would hurt Ada, hurt his dear friend and shoot him into the ocean.
He tries to keep his tone gentle, calm, not wanting to alarm her, but his voice catches.]
I will...I'll earn your trust. Do you know this person's name, Ada?
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[So thankfully it was not in person, she knew better than that at least. Was this at all being helpful currently? No. Not at all, but Ada didn't really know what was going on in the others head right now to think that maybe she should stop talking about it. At the mention of the name she paused.]
I might... why?
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[It's barely a relief, but it still is one knowing that Ada didn't approach him in person. Gilbert is a poor liar, and even worse at hiding his emotions. When she asks him why, there's a flicker of surprise. His body tenses and he holds his breath, mind reeling for any plausible excuse. He's really not good at this. Vincent would be much more convincing.]
Because I don't trust him.
[He finally answers, partially honest, after what feels like minutes of silence.]
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But Ada wanted to at least try and avoid that and it seemed like while only partly true was in fact still partly true.]
I mean I don't know him enough to know that myself. This world seems to have its way of messing with people after all...